If you knew....EW!

If you had met me about ten years ago, most of you probably would not have liked me. I was loud (well, that hasn't changed), obnoxious and very wise in my own eyes. It was the latter that usually effected most of my close relationships. I knew everything. Politics....I knew it. Being a parent (even though I wasn't one)...I knew it. Molecular biology....I knew it! I knew everything and as I think back, it must have been really hard to have a conversation with me. Sad to say, I still struggle with this today.
My "knowing everything" was definitely rooted in my judgement of you and everything in this world. Because I knew best, please know I was judging you and deciding if you are good or bad. If it what you did didn't agree with me, then the BAD stamp would come out. If I thought it was cool, GOOD!!! 


Then God tapped me on the shoulder. 
"This is my seat, thank you."


The most humbling moment in my life. I was sitting on the wrong seat! And it's a throne nonetheless!
I find myself trying to creep back into that seat from time to time. Then God reminds me of his Word...

Proverbs 9:13-18

New International Version 1984 

 ¹³ The woman Folly is loud;
   she is undisciplined and without knowledge.
¹⁴ She sits at the door of her house,
   on a seat at the highest point of the city,
¹⁵ calling out to those who pass by,
   who go straight on their way.
¹⁶ “Let all who are simple come in here!”
   she says to those who lack judgment.
¹⁷ “Stolen water is sweet;
   food eaten in secret is delicious!”
¹⁸ But little do they know that the dead are there,
   that her guests are in the depths of the grave.


That was me for sure. And me sometimes now.
I am grateful for these reminders and God's discipline now. I know He does cause He loves me but more so, I would rather have His discipline here than face to face!