Do you remember when you were a kid thinking about what super power you might have if you were a superhero? (Ok, some of us think about that now!) I knew exactly what mine was...invisibility. Actually, I was my super power. Yes, I am a superhero... Invisible Girl...away!!!! No, not really but I felt I had it. As a teen and a young adult I felt very invisible. I felt like no one could really see me. There were times people had full conversations in front of me as if I wasn't there. Or the automatic doors at the supermarket would not detect me. Or the automatic potty's and faucets at the airport would not flush or turn on. Worse, I thought no one could truly see my broken heart. Maybe no one cared. I was depressed. I hated myself. I saw no good in me at all. So why should I exist?
I think a lot of us feel that way. Invisible. Sometimes we make ourselves invisible - I do not want you to see me. Sometimes we feel so isolated that we are encased in invisibility. We are trapped in cell. Alone. I understand that feeling. We were not built to be alone. That is why it hurts so bad. We may think we are alone but we're not.
God sees us. More so, He sees our hearts. And sometimes our hearts lead us to think we are nothing, alone, junk...God says otherwise.
If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything. (1 John 3:20 NIV)
Your not invisible. You never will be. God knows everything, yet still loves you. So today, lock eyes with someone, say "Good morning!"as if to say through your eyes, 'I see you and you are loved. You are not invisible but cherished.' You may save a life.
Identified. I remember nightmares I used to have, before I met the Lord, and I was this little girl running and searching for someone to see me, or to look at me and I was all alone. Your last paragraph describes why I try to talk to everyone, especially the young. Isolation (or the perception of it) is a tool of the enemy and so all praise and glory to God who through his sacrifice has been able to tell me that I am not alone and that I NEVER was. Thanks for posting. ps(Those nightmares never haunt me anymore..hallelujah!)
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