I received a phone call from my husband.
Dan: Do you want to take the day off?
Such a question is odd for me to hear from him because he never misses work. In the seven years he worked there, he missed a total of three days (not including vacation or bereavement time off).
Veronica: Of course, but why?
Dan: I was just laid off.
It shook me to the core. I couldn't believe that a place were Dan worked so hard and gave o much would do this our family. What are we going to do? We have a baby coming?
Hearing my voice, he came into work. Smiling. Peaceful. By this time, I wasn't worried but mourning. How could they? He hugged me. We prayed. We had peace.
Two nights before, Dan was sharing something God had asked him...
Do you trust me?
I thought they were incredible words and with my wannabe psych skills from one class I had in college, I hyper analyzed what God told him. But I didn't really listen.
Do you trust me?
In that week, a friend came to him and shared the perfect job for Dan. We were elated. It had everything we had prayed for. After weeks of applying for work, this job was it. God said, "Do you trust me?" and He provided. He was offered the job. But as excited as we were and with all the plans I had made for the new used minivan I would buy or the money we would give back and forward to help others in this season, I learned I put my trust in a man and not my Savior.
The job fell through...
That hit me harder than the layoff. I was angry now. Mad and hurt. I found whatever I could to blame. This job was his.
I was fuming. Can I trust You?
Do you trust me?
After prayer and a booger snot session with God, I started to process my feelings and my hurt. I stopped projecting and started believing in His promises. That He is faithful, more than able and will not leave us or forsake us. That He sees us and knows what we are going through. That He loves us.
He is trustworthy because He never fails.
Yesterday, a friend asked how a recent interview went. I guess my heart was tired of sharing the "great interview, no call" story when I looked over and saw a guy giving a thumbs up smiling because Dan had so many interviews this week. It overwhelms my heart to think about right now as tears drop on down my cheeks. The greatest provision has been peace. The second has been the prayers and support from family, friends and church family.
He has called us out on the water. We will keep our eyes fixed on Him and not the unseen or unknown so we won't sink.
fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. Hebrews 12:2
fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. Hebrews 12:2
God's provision for our family as been insane in this season. He has used many of you to encourage us. The prayers, the support, a word, a touch, a shoulders to cry on, the odd jobs, the food, the gift cards and more. I just want to say thank you. It's the only Christmas gift I can give. I wish I give you more. But my gratitude for you is greater that anything I could find in this world.
Surely, Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield. Psalm 5:12
By the end of the year, we had two offers. He started his new job January 6th!
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