I am on the worship team for Celebrate Recovery at our church and I totally love it! I love to serve God with my voice, a gift that I used to hate and was embarrassed of. Worship is amazing because it time for us to just praise God and thank Him for everything. It is selfless and full of humility. You can't praise God and praise yourself.
Well, if you know me, you know that I am a cryer. I will cry the moment I see someone's eye get red or I am touched.
It wasn't always that way. As a perfectionist, I stuffed a lot of my feelings. I wouldn't dare show you how I felt. Now, I just can't help it. God spoke to my heart and said, "I am going to humiliate you" and since then, I cry...A LOT!
I was reading Exodus 20 and read something that I must have missed the other times I have read it. At the end of chapter, God tells Moses about altars. He says that need to be made of undressed stones. And then God says "And do not go up to my altar on steps, lest your nakedness be exposed on it." This blew me away.
I read it over and over. This altar needed to be undressed stones because if Moses carved them, then it would be about Moses and his carving ability and how artistic he is. Not showing God's artistry. He made them after all. His artistry is amazing.
Then the steps. Sometimes when I worship, that is exactly how I feel. Completely naked. Completely exposed. And when I am really crying out to God and He moves in a powerful way, I cry. Hard. Five years ago I would be mortified. Ashamed. Angry. But what a blessing to expose all for Him. He warns us. "lest your nakedness be exposed". When we serve in CR. When we share our testimonies. When openly speak of what the world deems shameful...we expose our nakedness.
So, how naked are you today?
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