Spaghetti, again?

So, about a week ago God spoke to my heart and called me out. He convicted me regarding my spending. In our household, we have a really tight budget...I mean really tight! But whenever there is extra money, I will go to Kohl's and get something. Yes, I totally LOVE Kohl's. Well, I think I have been doing a little too much retail therapy, spending any extra dollar that we have on my needs and not thinking at all of the needs of my family. I have been wrapped up in selfishness.


Well, God called me to a spending fast. 


Fasts are so hard for me. I recognize they are hard for everyone. If they were easy, they wouldn't be a fast. But my self control is awful. It is so bad that I know that it keeps me from God. However, whenever I have fasted, it has been eye opening and amazing. Why? Because that thing that keeps me from God is removed and I draw even more closer to him.
So, spending fast, here I go. And guess what? It has been amazing to see God's provision for me. I am floored by it. It has actually saved us. My last paycheck was very tight. I mean really tight! Because of the fast, I had just enough money to cover the bills with 97 cents left. But, uh oh, no grocery money. Can I tell you about the manna   found in our garage. Tomato sauce, tomato paste and spaghetti. My mom more than likely bought it the last time she came out to visit. We have had spaghetti every night this week. And for lunch, tuna fish. We have tons of tuna fish and canned fruit in our pantry. What's even better is that Dan and I are currently in Genesis and with example of the Israelites, we have worked hard to see God's provision rather than "grumble" as they did. And they did a lot of it! 


We could have pulled money from our savings but it was our decision not to do so. We knew that God would provide and that we were not supposed to touch that money. Only for emergencies. Even God made loaves and fishes of Penny's formula.


And what's better is God blessed us with some other meals as well. One day Dan's boss bought him Carl's Jr. Another day, one of the ladies in the office had a left over pan of chicken enchiladas that the office enjoyed. And today, I was at a meeting at we had Fausto's. I am totally basking in God's goodness.


Tomorrow Dan gets paid so our household will be somewhat back to normal. But if God asked me to, I would eat spaghetti again for another week. The lesson of provision He has taught us has been overwhelming. 


I am still in my spending fast. No items outside of our family groceries and needs and I am feeling really good. God's blessings are not lost on us. We are shouting his praises!